1stepping

I went to 2 meetings today and they were both 1st step meetings. What I get out of first step meetings isn't reassurance of not drinking, what I get is gratitude of where I am out today. That's really what I get from 1st step work today. I have a disease that will get me to say "fuck it". I will forget all the consequences and failed attempts at drinking and try to hide my pain with a drink.

3 days removed from having had worked 10 days in a row and I was still feeling it. My new pillows I got yesterday helped me sleep much better though :-)

Today I am grateful for
being able to go to meetings and seeing my friends
not having to go to bars to see my friends
peaceful day at work
rain to cool us off a bit
Subway